Monday, March 26, 2012

April Sudaaaa!

Hi There...

Lama tak menjenguk blog, bukannye benci tapi ...1) laptop kong, 2)pindah keje baru...3) busy (tah hape lah busynya) 4) malas..

Now I have new Netbook so nak start menulis semula..

A little update on myself..

Skrg dah kerja kat tempat lain, ke Dataran Prima..since November 2011. Duluuu, masa kerja kat advertising agency jamban pintu merah tu..punya lah seksa nak jumpa client kat Dataran Prima, tah ceruk2 dunia mana. Masa tu aku pun berkata2 lah dlm hati, tak kuase haku nak kerja kat area ni..Nah! amek ko..sekarang ni lah opis aku..

Tapi sekarang dah senang sikit, since aku dah tau jalan2 shortcut nak pergi sini....bangunan nye cam buruk..tapiii..org2nya jelita2 belake..

Mula-mula masuk sini, culture shock jugak..kawan2nya lain, though 1 department ni ade ramai jugak familiar faces dr kilang ketapi tu lah kan..tapi environement dah lain..yg lagi panic, job role pun lain...aku kena buat payroll!

Dah lah aku tak suka nombor2..pas tu benda tu pulak lah aku kena handle...tapi at least i give a try n challenge myself..i can do it i can't stand the stress...org2 yang coolll..n tak cepat panic je boleh buat cam aku ni yg selalu gelabah ayam..memang konpim tak boleh handle..

So after few months buat opportunity datang utk handle benda apa lah lagi kan...

boleh ke saye...jadi warganye...

Update lain....hopefully I can be a student again soon...borang dah di hantar, waiting for surat je..n..part from writing again...2 project on the same time..a memoir of myself n a love story "Izinkanku mencitai kamu.." ~ I need to declare it here so I will make sure i buat sampai habis..tak separuh2 jalan je...

netbook je..

Talking about separuh jalan, azam 2012 ialah taknak buat kerja separuh jalan, all this while memang aku le org yg selalu buat keje separuh jalan..asal siap..kualiti hancuss..! this year..I'll proove it..both memoir n novel need to be done before my 38th birthday...38 ke...??

Then aku dah start push myself pergi gym, n everytime I am on that machine..kalau aku set 30 minit..i'll make sure i finishkan 30 minit tu..sampai dia tulis "Workout done! Great Job!' baru le rasa best kan...Takde dah mcm dulu..asal mengah je stop..walaupun baru je 10 minit! Then guitar pun, if any chords lagu2 yg saya suka..i'll make sure i boleh main lagu tu n nyanyi sekali..baru lah tak berkarat guitar aku kan...

"and the guitar is ready"

Anyway, thank you for always been there sampai sekarang...wait for my memoir title tak sure lagi "NAMA SAYA K.O.R.A.I.Z.A' or "Aku ingin menggapai bintang" (korang rasa mana best..?) and citer love story "Izinkanku Mencintai Kamu"

Now dah almost kita mesti.... CERGAS CERGAS CERGAS..!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Bye-bye 1FA, Bye-bye Kilang Ketapi...

Ini adalah monorail betul yg dicipta n di assemblekan oleh warga tempatan n beberapa expatriates n foreign workers. Kilangnya ada di celah2 hutan n semak samun di Rawang. Train ini didatangkan khas dlm 3 warna, biru, hijau n PINK...train drivernye plak..hensem2 n ayu belaka...Kat Kilang ni, selain buat monorail, they all ada jugak jual karipap sedap, n ada jugak segerombolan manusia yg hensem2, comel2 n yg best2 belaka..(ye keee?)

I always have problem whenever I need to say goodbye. I still remember when I was in Darjah 6, i cried a river on my last day..konon2nya sedih sgt lah nak tinggalkan sekolah tu, the teachers n of course the friends.

Then, I cried a river again when I was in Uitm Melaka...konon2nya sedih sgt nak tinggalkan my Pre-Dip class DMC B...

This time, when I want to say bye-bye to my fellow officemate..i tak nangis dah..maybe i dah cry a lot during that miscariage episode...I came to the office last Friday just to do some handover n hugs2 n bye2 here n there..but I was still weak..i've got low my mind was a bit here n there....But, I came out with this poem that i've emailed to..I hope everybody that I worked with...SEB team, SRB team, HRSS team, COMREDs team, etc.. as my final gift to them..

Really enjoy working at that Kilang Keretapi...!

Few months ago, I never think so
To send this email, like those who have sailed
But it seems the day has finally come
For me, to waive my palm

I will remember all the ups and downs
But I will recall only the laughter’s sound
As those memories were rare and different
Coz you all were the ones who make it happened

From viewing CVs and arranging interviews
That was how I got to know some of you
From travel VISA to work permit
That was when I got the chance to get closer to those charming expatriate!
Especially that pink train lover name ROHIT

To those technicians and extrovert engineers
Proud of yourself coz you are the thinkers and doers
Though some time we got sour faces between each other
But most of the time we stand side by side rubbing shoulders!

Just give the best in whatever you are doing
Coz when your parents or kids ask you can proudly tell them
All those stuff about Bogie, Apron, Rolling Stock, T&C, Switches & Signalling
“I am part of the team who make that Monorail moving!”

To Finance Team, Procurement, Marcomm, Legal, Admin & Secretaries
Thank you for kind assistance and make my life like sweet cherries
From PR, PO, TRF, claims, appointments, Form 49 and SAPs
Happiest thing when Admin replenish biscuits and deliver my stationeries!

Dear COMREDS, my red house team
We’re the one who make the rest scream
Winning seldom ...frequently loosing
Without us I don’t think all games will be so enjoying!

Not to forget.. HRSS team
Who always smile and keep on blooming
Who patiently answered my questions and queries
From payroll, entitlement, and also ING

Dear GAME Engineers & those “Fantastic Four”
You’ve touch my heart ever since you walked through that door
I will cherish these whole wonderful years
Next time I’ll see you, you should be wiser and better!

To AUDACIOUS those with great left brain
Please don’t give up, just keep on rollin’
Others may pay thousand just to learn what you do
But you’re so talented, so let’s on that Amp and just be you!

Last but not least, to group of people we called Human Resource
Who always hear me singing from Nirvana, Rihanna to Diana Ross
Thank you for those sweet memories and sharing sessions
I’ve learned a lot, all bunch of lesson

I will miss the most all of you dear friends
And also the coldness of this North Pole, Level 18 branch.
Yeah.. that Google Chat thing which is so interesting
Will you miss my new status every morning?

I hope I’ve done something good to all of you
Maybe not to all, maybe just a few
Hope we can met again another chapter, another part
Very Much Thank You, from the bottom of my heart!

Monday, October 24, 2011

Nur Najmaien Bin Jumaien

Thursday - 20th Ocober 2011

I went to office as usual. Nothing different. But last nite when I was sleeping, I've got this super chill that suddenly attacking my whole body till i shiver. I wonder is this something to do with brownish discharge that i have recently.

I have good lunch with office mate at Milanos, I complaint how my Acceptance of Resignation Letter has been wrong, this and that. Then suddenly when I want to go for Zohor prayer at 3pm, I felt something is not right, I went to toilet and there it was..blood. I stand still in the toilet for about 10 minutes..don't know what to do, trying to calm down myself, try to justify things..I am drop dead pale. I Google about pregnancy and bleeding and 15th weeks and it's written there "any kind of bleeding in pregnance is abnormal.." I panicked.

I've decided to go the time i reached home, it's alredy 4pm and the "gyne" at KPJ Selangor already left. While waiting for Abg Jay to come back, I decided to wait until tomorrow. I thought, it is should be alright...

Friday - 21st October 2011

9am..We went to KPJ selangor, I register myself as 1st time patient. I then met Dr. Siti. I explained to Dr. Siti that I have visited GP for last 2 visits, I showed her my blood test result, I told her, my pregnancy history..then she asked me to lay on the bed to do some scanning.

Then..the grey cloud start covering my head...when Dr Siti start asking weird question.." Pernah tak rasa mcm tak pregnant?" " Pernah tak rasa mcm baby takde?" actually she just trying to figure out how to drop the bomb..." Mintak maaf nak bagi tau..actually baby dah takde..the heartbeat is not there..maybe dia dah takde for 2 days.." Then she start explaining the procedure this n that which frankly speaking I actually hear n understand nothing..

We then checked into the ward..after few calls made seeking help from friends n family to bank in some cash since the amount told to us quite high..Nurses showed me to my room and bed...I try to digest what has happened to me...nurses taking my blood sample, check my bp, check if i have diluted, etc..then only when i catched Abg Jay's eyes.....then my tears drop..

I never thought things can be that bad...or..can i put it this way..i never thought bad things can happen to us. Who am i to say that kind of words, so selfish of me.

They put in some medication, they said the baby will come out by himself, like normal birth..they said they will put in the medication every 3 hours till the baby comes out...I never thought the pain will be that same as labour pain..the contraction...after the first 3 hours, the midwife put in another medication..and the pain was terrible until i ask for pain killer but they said tablet won't work for that kind of pain..they need to jap me at the back..

Then suddenly I felt something coming is like waterbag plop when we want to give birth..and i know the baby has come out. D0c Siti came to check...and ensure the baby and the uri/placenta has properly keluar..n do the procedure which is so painfull to ensure everythinbg in my rahim keluar..semua dah bersih...

I was lucky Abg Jay was always there..I know he was very busy, his phone keeps ringing, he needs to fetch the 2 girls from child care..this n that..but I am grateful he always be there..especially when the doc do the cleaning procedure...Ya Allah..sakitnya..

After the procedure abg Jay balik rumah..with the janin..he called me at 10pm..he told me the baby was in perfect condition, the hand, the legs, everythig were there..and it's a boy...then was when i start wondering what went wrong..and all those questions came to my head.

I SMS abg Jay, and asked him to name the baby. Since we never thought of any, I came up with Nur Ajmaien but then Abg Jay gave him Nur Najmaien.

Saturday 22nd October 2011

I was discharged. I went back. Abg Jay busy with " kebumikan the janin" . Of course we felt very sad. While abg Jay busy kemas rumah, basuh kain, etc..I start analyzing what happened to me. I recall one day Ustaz Sekomi told us during ceramah "pada usia 3-4 bulan, baby dlm kandungan akan ditanya sama ada dia mahu meneruskan hidupnya di dunia atau dia tidak mahu.' I can't remember the exact words but it seems that the baby doesn't want to live. He rather go. Then i start to think.."maybe it was becoz of me, maybe i am not good enough, all the curse to those drivers who cut the line,etc.. then the baby rather go then grown up with this not so good mother.." that thought make me so sad.

Sincerely speaking..I cried for 3 days, then suddenly something hit me on Monday..."Allah wants to remind you, you need to change your life, do more good things, Allah knows best, if let say the baby stay and grown up..and turn to be Monster..who knows..and we're not here to justified God's decision..move on Nani, be better person..At least Nur Najmaein is already 'there' waiting for you and praying for us, Insya Allah.

I am good now..I enjoy this 1 week MC given to me. Though this is not the way i thought i ever spend my last few days with fellow officemate in Sekomi..but Allah knows best.

To those who help me with cash, etc..Thank you very much. And thank you also for all positive words and prayers, we really appreciate it very much. Jazzakallah...

To Nur Najmaein..ibu will always miss you...

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Flipping those pages...

1 place I'll miss the most when i left 1 FA is ....the Popular Book Store (besides JJ, Milanos, n mcm2 tempat lagi..)...too near to our office, bak kata my friend sweet Sophia.."kentut tak hilang bau lagi dah sampai.." too big to left it alone and too inviting to only pass by.

Lately, I have different taste in choosing my book. Dulu, mostly love stories yg meleleh2 air hidung membacanya..or..funny stories...but now still funny but yet more on memoir. And major changes is the year that story happened. During 3 weeks raya 2011 KK trip, I read Billy Brown, I'll Tell Your Mother. I was and i am not sure why i picked this book. Maybe bcoz of the is in black n white. The book is a memoir of a boy name Billy, how he and his family live in London after World War II. How at age of 7, he looked for part time job just for the sake of getting extra pocket money. He started with working part time on Saturday, then he try to work in market on Sunday. The most interesting part, how this young boy looks into all opportunities in front of him, e.g..selling horse shit for Rose garden (budak2 lain sure tak mau..busuk), selling unused fruit boxes for fire wood, selling apple picked from rumah tinggal, etc.etc. The best pat, this book is rather is not normal sad memoir...or kisah sedih kehidupan is different. Try read it..

For those who has adventurous life when u were a kid, you might enjoy this book. But for those who got to spend ur kid's life attending ballet class, piano class, language class....i hope u can understand this book. Apparently, my daughter Juanna just don't get it either. For her.. "why la.. that boy need to do extra work, mak dia tak marah ke..kecik2 lagi dah kerja". Same like she doesn't understand To Kill The Mocking Bird...she just don't get it how come young children can just run across the field, masuk hutan, tangkap burung. She just haven't got chances to enjoy that kind of moment like i did..(of course zaman aku kecik2 takde PS2, internet, bagai) ..sian budak2 zaman skrg.

Now, I am reading The Diary of Young Girl - Anne Frank. This is so true story! It is about Anne Frank, a Jewish girl..(if mak aku tau aku baca buku pasal yahudi..mesti dia berleter...) how she and her family live in secret room they called Secret Annexe just for the sake of saving their lives from German during WWII. The book make us feel the miserable life they felt. 8 of them hiding for 25 weeks++, never go outside, never feel the fresh air breeze, never kiss the rain n never taste the snow flakes for 2 years pluss!! The place is so damp and so dark. In summer it was so hot, in winter it was so cold. And this 14 years old girl has put every words perfectly in her diary, she is so talented..though this book written in Dutch but has been translated into few languages. If you wish to preview the book, you can visit this link

It has complete photo of the family. I haven't finish reading it yet..maybe i can finish it tonight but from the closing n welcome notes of the book, i got to know that Anne died in concentration camp when he was 15. I guess this book makes me lebih bersyukur I don't have go through WWII..but who knows?

Next book...? dah beli dah...a story about black women who work as maid with white families in sounthern US in ke tak? tunguuuuuuu........

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Public Announcement!

Yeaaaa...after almost a year, finally i manage to come back to this lonely is not bcoz i have nothing to say, actually i have a lot but Notes in FB is much easier to key in..using my nokia cap ayam..sambil berbaring2 pun boleh key in...

2011 almost come to the far, there are so many things happened. The most i'll remember is..The Prank on my birthday from my lovely adik2 kilang ketapi and KK trip Syawal 2011..

There is something i would like to announce 3 weeks++ (betul ke..??) pregnant!..ngahhhh..what a surprise...after naqeesya dah 7 years old....alhamdulillahh. Pregnant at 37 is...exciting but a bit tiring..don't call me at 9pm..i maybe dah ternganga kat atas sofa...zzzzzzz...

What else, moving away from this lovely kilang ketapi soon...where? Later i update ye...

How do u like my new blog layout?? I don't know what is there left in my brain..but it looks a bit childish..but i really like it..the font is like my handwriting when i was in secondary school.....(karangan BM of course....kalau paper Physic, Bio or Kimia....the handwriting will be like cacing kerawit..since most of the time i tido dlm kelass....)

Ok..till now first..hopefully i will be rajin to write again soon..

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

tears drop at paediatric unit, HUKM...

I end up (almost..though few days more left..) 2010 with unexpected experience that melt my heart. Last week, I received invitation from Green House to join their Pyramid Project at HUKM. Clearly, I don't have any idea what it is all about..I thought, it is good to go out from office and have some fun. Media Prima will bring few celebrities...sure it will be fun...(though I can't recognise few of them!!)

So to HUKM we went yesterday, En Hkimi, Dell and I and the rest . Then everything getting clearer over there, actually SC*** and Media Prima donated 8 units of LCD TV to the pediatric unit. During the ceremony, I saw lots of kids...anak-anak yang kurang sihat, few of them baru habis chemotherapy session, they all getting bold and weak but still they can smile, behind their cute face mask. Some of them looks like very happy kids, but underneath their t-shirt tubes n wires sticking out from their stomach, 1 of them there is hole under their chin and they all bellow 6 years old!

I met this one kakak with her 4 years old son Amir who has suffered from serious epilepsy since he was 3-4 months old. His epilepsy has damaged part of his brain, he can't speak and stand, walk . In other words he is not like normal 4 years old kid. Kakak start telling me the story about Amir. She actually adopted Amir from Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat. After been married for 15 years with no kids, kakak n her husband decided to adopted a boy. Then they've met Amir, a boy who has been born outside of wedlock. His original parent were IPTA student. Maybe now both of his parent have graduated but they decided not to raise Amir. Kakak said, when she first adopted Amir, he was a healthy baby, but Allah want to test them, one day while she was bathing Amir, he turn blue then everything started since then...

But, during my conversation with kakak..I can't sense any regrets, any dissapointment or any sadness. She looks calm, happy and she loves Amir very much. Her husband just normal penjaja, but still she looks nothing big deal. In fact her final words before we say goodbye really touch my heart.."Nasib baik ibu bapa dia hantar kat Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat ada lah rezeki akak nak besarkan Amir, nasib baik dia orang tak buang Amir merata-rata....agak2nya kalau ditakdirkan ibu bapa dia yang jaga Amir, mungkin dia orang pun tak tahan nak tengok Amir yang sentiasa sakit mcm ni, agaknya sebab tu Allah temukan akak dengan Amir..."

get well soon, dear....

My tears broke when I met this little Chinese girl. She's been warded since 15 Dec, and when I asked her why she is here she said "Doctor said my blood count very low, and I am very weak." Gosh!! she looks like Naqeesya, and she told me that she is going to school next week but she's not sure which school she will be going. I pat her back holding back my tears as I know, probably she unable to attend the school next week. She just smile and she said she went to kinder garden but she always absence since she's not well.

Across her bed, I saw one little girl, sitting alone in her cage like bed. A nurse told me that she is from Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat, she's been abandoned, She is OKU, she is sick and alone. Then nurse told me there are babies over there which have been abandoned at Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat and now they are not well.

I can't hold back my tears any longer.....I just move back, I can't stand to hear anymore stories from the nurse about them...It just so sad to look at those beautiful faces, abandoned and very sick.

Ya Allah, please blessed them, sihatkan tubuh badan mereka and assist them to be very good khalifah, and permudahkan urusan kehidupan mereka. Amin....

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Berlari Ke Langit..

Dah banyak kali I put Berlari Ke Langit as my status kat FB. Why? I don't know, but some how certain time in a year..I just feels like I want to pack my back and go somewhere far and left behind everything..only me and nature and new area..meeting new people and feels the butterfly in the stomach when we landed at new places....Feww...sounds like movie Eat, Pray and Love pulak dah.
But it is true..that is how I feel sometimes.

Some other time, I just wants to be at home in my favourite baju tido (Big t-shirts n loose track bottom/seluar kotak2) and just baring2 on my cozy land/room..and read book, flip over magazine/ watch those DVD haram yg beli kat The Summit while listening to radio...

Now I really feels like nak berlari ke langit, pack my back and go somewhere new, yg I tak pernah pergi....Can I do that??

It maybe feels great when we have different Immigration Stamp on our passport kan...and call ourself Word Travellers macam Ian Wright or Asha Gill...

Next year, plan to go Singapore and Bali..Boleh ke? Let see how it goes....

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Saya dan KK

Kami balik July lalu sebab ada wedding sis in law.... syok berkumpul satu family. Terpaksa ambik cuti seminggu dan mencuti kan anak2 dr sekolah seminggu juga...

Gambar keluarga in law adik beradik...cukup 9 orang adik beradik semuanya..

Anjung Selera..waktu senja..makanan tak berapa sedap pun jadi sedap dgn view macam ni..

KK memang cantik and unik...hmmm...bila nak balik lagi ye..?

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Nak Kurus...!

Lamanya dah tak berblog....apa jadi dah kat blog ni? masih hidup cuma sepi sikit je...pejam celik pejam celik...dah masuk June, pertengahan June dah. Dari Episod naik Gunung last october..sampai sekarang..nampak gayanya tak ada perkembangan menraik dalam hidup aku..melainkan perkembangan tubuh badan.....oh tidakk..tidakkk.

Menjejakkan kaki sebagai kontrak staff kat SC*** ni, nampak gayanya hajat dan keingininan nak jadi Pen"kurus" tak berapa nak jadi...mana taknye, foodcourt turun satu floor sahaja, birthday party ada every month. farewell party pun ada every month jugak, bila ustaz datang bg ceramah..dapat free lunch..makan lagi. Balik ke rumah, anak2 makan..ibu pun nak makan jugak...adoi...belum nak kira lagi..tukang buat cup cake n chocolate cake yg sedap yg ada kat depan mata ni...

Hari tu ada lah jugak mendaftarkan diri kat Gym terdekat kat rumah. Fitness World. Takdelah segah Fitness First,Celebrity Fitness, True Fitness..what not..tapi gymlah jugak..dah lah murah RM90 je..TAPIIIII....hajat hati nak kurus tetap tak berjaya. Aku aktif gym beberapa minggu terawal aje, selepas diserang chicken pox awal january dulu..aktiviti ke gym dah makin slow....

I am so sure, lepas aku post kan en3 ni..ramailah penjual2 obat kurus akan menyerbu FB n Shout box aku nak buat dek je..aku nak teruskan dgn aktiviti berjogging ala2 berlari2 anak yang aku dah start buat 2-3 minggu dah ni...walaupun setakat 20-30 minit..tapi sampai setakat ini consistent lah lagi..(Harap2 forever ye..). Ni ada lah pulak org dok promote beli krim pelangsing. Bukannya apa, tujuan pakai krim ni adalah untuk meningkatkan xtvt pembakaran lemak ketika aku pun termakan jugak kata2 nya dan dah beli..panas ooo!!!

Terpaksa nyorok kat belakang..sbb konon2 tak nampak badan...kueng3X

So..berjayakah aku meng"kuruskan" badan aku??? kita tunggu dan lihat..yeah!!

Friday, January 8, 2010

Bila Lagi

Adoi Nyah....

2010 dah seminggu berlalu...seminggu ni jugak lah aku terperuk aje kat rumah semenjak Si Naqeesya kena chicken pox..kesian minah lain dah start sekolah..dia dok melangut je lagi kat depan Disney Channel. Sepanjang seminggu ini lah jugak aku asyik BerFarmville dan BerCafe World..sehinggalah kelmarin aku dapat satu email dari akademi penulis..yg buatkan hati aku penuh bara.....

Bara-bara hati aku ni makin marak setelah aku baca buku terbaru abg pek, 9 Nyawa (Izuddin punya idea lah ni..nak bagi title mcm tu ..setelah menengokkan kucing2 mereka yg gemuk2 tuh..). mamat ni..siang2 kerja, kadang2 kena pergi ober sea lagi..malam balik rumah tolong basuh kain lagi hehehe...tapi masih ada masa nak tulis novel...

Email dari akademi penulis tu aku baca utk tah keberapa tu kata dia org ada menawarkan kursus penulisan 3 hari 2 malam di Hotel Vistana dgn harga Rm1600 dan seterusnya bila aku belek2 lagi aku jumpa pulak website yg menawarkan bengkel penulisan percuma...Rm1600 ke, percuma ke bukan satu masaklah...masaklahnye..aku!..rajin kah...?

Dan hari ini aku belek2 lagi thumbdrive tempat aku simpan koleksi2 cerpen ku, aku baca balik Tudung Wani yg pernah tersiar kat majalah Nur, Senjakala yg pernah tersiar kat Dara.Com, dan beberapa cerpen lagi yg pernah masuk Remaja, Nur, Muslimah..etc...Akhirnya, aku belek novel2 yg dah aku tulis yg akhirnya jadik macam Projek rumah tak sudah.. Mungkin Nanti Ada Kasih dah masuk Chapter 20 tapi aku stop sbb kerumitan hidup masa kat kuantan yg akhirnya Novel tu dipendekkan jadik cerpen je..nasib baik tersiar jugak kat Nur..terima kasih Salina Ibrahim. Kemudian, Andai Bulan Bisa Bicara , novel thriller yg dah masuk Chapter 12..tapi tak sudah2 jugak selepas aku tiba2 diserang soklan yg beturbi2.."boleh jual ke, ada ke org nak publish ke..sedang kan buku tu tak siap lagi tp aku dah fikir bukan2...bila aku baca..ok jugak tulisan aku nih...(kalau tak aku, sapa lagi nak puji.. dah aku sorang je yg baca...)dan yg terakhir yg sepatutnya siap tahun 2009..Ada Apa Dengan Ameena Zahara..aku bantutkan hajat hati nak siapkan buku ni selepas 1 publisher kata "buku dalam bentuk diari tak boleh jual, guna style monolog, menyebabkan jalan cerita tak boleh berkembang"..dan aku pun terus tak kembangkannya...

Aduhai Nani Koraiza..kalau ko siapkan buku2 tu..tah2 sekarang ni ko dah jadi...famous dah (ahaks22)....tak baik aku tahun ini..nak siapkan 2 buku aku itu...siap kan je...publish ke tak lain cerita.....boleh kah? Rajin kah..? Jgn fikir byk..buat je...