tears drop at paediatric unit, HUKM...

I end up (almost..though few days more left..) 2010 with unexpected experience that melt my heart. Last week, I received invitation from Green House to join their Pyramid Project at HUKM. Clearly, I don't have any idea what it is all about..I thought, it is good to go out from office and have some fun. Media Prima will bring few celebrities...sure it will be fun...(though I can't recognise few of them!!)

So to HUKM we went yesterday, En Hkimi, Dell and I and the rest . Then everything getting clearer over there, actually SC*** and Media Prima donated 8 units of LCD TV to the pediatric unit. During the ceremony, I saw lots of kids...anak-anak yang kurang sihat, few of them baru habis chemotherapy session, they all getting bold and weak but still they can smile, behind their cute face mask. Some of them looks like very happy kids, but underneath their t-shirt tubes n wires sticking out from their stomach, 1 of them there is hole under their chin and they all bellow 6 years old!
Amir..

I met this one kakak with her 4 years old son Amir who has suffered from serious epilepsy since he was 3-4 months old. His epilepsy has damaged part of his brain, he can't speak and stand, walk . In other words he is not like normal 4 years old kid. Kakak start telling me the story about Amir. She actually adopted Amir from Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat. After been married for 15 years with no kids, kakak n her husband decided to adopted a boy. Then they've met Amir, a boy who has been born outside of wedlock. His original parent were IPTA student. Maybe now both of his parent have graduated but they decided not to raise Amir. Kakak said, when she first adopted Amir, he was a healthy baby, but Allah want to test them, one day while she was bathing Amir, he turn blue then everything started since then...

But, during my conversation with kakak..I can't sense any regrets, any dissapointment or any sadness. She looks calm, happy and she loves Amir very much. Her husband just normal penjaja, but still she looks .....like nothing big deal. In fact her final words before we say goodbye really touch my heart.."Nasib baik ibu bapa dia hantar kat Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat ada lah rezeki akak nak besarkan Amir, nasib baik dia orang tak buang Amir merata-rata....agak2nya kalau ditakdirkan ibu bapa dia yang jaga Amir, mungkin dia orang pun tak tahan nak tengok Amir yang sentiasa sakit mcm ni, agaknya sebab tu Allah temukan akak dengan Amir..."

get well soon, dear....

My tears broke when I met this little Chinese girl. She's been warded since 15 Dec, and when I asked her why she is here she said "Doctor said my blood count very low, and I am very weak." Gosh!! she looks like Naqeesya, and she told me that she is going to school next week but she's not sure which school she will be going. I pat her back holding back my tears as I know, probably she unable to attend the school next week. She just smile and she said she went to kinder garden but she always absence since she's not well.

Across her bed, I saw one little girl, sitting alone in her cage like bed. A nurse told me that she is from Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat, she's been abandoned, She is OKU, she is sick and alone. Then nurse told me there are babies over there which have been abandoned at Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat and now they are not well.

I can't hold back my tears any longer.....I just move back, I can't stand to hear anymore stories from the nurse about them...It just so sad to look at those beautiful faces, abandoned and very sick.

Ya Allah, please blessed them, sihatkan tubuh badan mereka and assist them to be very good khalifah, and permudahkan urusan kehidupan mereka. Amin....

Berlari Ke Langit..

Dah banyak kali I put Berlari Ke Langit as my status kat FB. Why? I don't know, but some how certain time in a year..I just feels like I want to pack my back and go somewhere far and left behind everything..only me and nature and new area..meeting new people and feels the butterfly in the stomach when we landed at new places....Feww...sounds like movie Eat, Pray and Love pulak dah.
But it is true..that is how I feel sometimes.

Some other time, I just wants to be at home in my favourite baju tido (Big t-shirts n loose track bottom/seluar kotak2) and just baring2 on my cozy land/room..and read book, flip over magazine/ watch those DVD haram yg beli kat The Summit while listening to radio...

Now I really feels like nak berlari ke langit, pack my back and go somewhere new, yg I tak pernah pergi....Can I do that??

It maybe feels great when we have different Immigration Stamp on our passport kan...and call ourself Word Travellers macam Ian Wright or Asha Gill...

Next year, plan to go Singapore and Bali..Boleh ke? Let see how it goes....

Saya dan KK

Kami balik July lalu sebab ada wedding sis in law.... syok berkumpul satu family. Terpaksa ambik cuti seminggu dan mencuti kan anak2 dr sekolah seminggu juga...

Gambar keluarga in law adik beradik...cukup 9 orang adik beradik semuanya..

Anjung Selera..waktu senja..makanan tak berapa sedap pun jadi sedap dgn view macam ni..

KK memang cantik and unik...hmmm...bila nak balik lagi ye..?

Nak Kurus...!

Lamanya dah tak berblog....apa jadi dah kat blog ni? masih hidup cuma sepi sikit je...pejam celik pejam celik...dah masuk June, pertengahan June dah. Dari Episod naik Gunung last october..sampai sekarang..nampak gayanya tak ada perkembangan menraik dalam hidup aku..melainkan perkembangan tubuh badan.....oh tidakk..tidakkk.

Menjejakkan kaki sebagai kontrak staff kat SC*** ni, nampak gayanya hajat dan keingininan nak jadi Pen"kurus" tak berapa nak jadi...mana taknye, foodcourt turun satu floor sahaja, birthday party ada every month. farewell party pun ada every month jugak, bila ustaz datang bg ceramah..dapat free lunch..makan lagi. Balik ke rumah, anak2 makan..ibu pun nak makan jugak...adoi...belum nak kira lagi..tukang buat cup cake n chocolate cake yg sedap yg ada kat depan mata ni...


Hari tu ada lah jugak mendaftarkan diri kat Gym terdekat kat rumah. Fitness World. Takdelah segah Fitness First,Celebrity Fitness, True Fitness..what not..tapi gymlah jugak..dah lah murah RM90 je..TAPIIIII....hajat hati nak kurus tetap tak berjaya. Aku aktif gym beberapa minggu terawal aje, selepas diserang chicken pox awal january dulu..aktiviti ke gym dah makin slow....

I am so sure, lepas aku post kan en3 ni..ramailah penjual2 obat kurus akan menyerbu FB n Shout box aku...tp aku nak buat dek je..aku nak teruskan dgn aktiviti berjogging ala2 berlari2 anak yang aku dah start buat 2-3 minggu dah ni...walaupun setakat 20-30 minit..tapi sampai setakat ini consistent lah lagi..(Harap2 forever ye..). Ni ada lah pulak org dok promote beli krim pelangsing. Bukannya apa, tujuan pakai krim ni adalah untuk meningkatkan xtvt pembakaran lemak ketika berjogging..so aku pun termakan jugak kata2 nya dan dah beli..panas ooo!!!


Terpaksa nyorok kat belakang..sbb konon2 tak nampak badan...kueng3X

So..berjayakah aku meng"kuruskan" badan aku??? kita tunggu dan lihat..yeah!!

Bila Lagi

Adoi Nyah....

2010 dah seminggu berlalu...seminggu ni jugak lah aku terperuk aje kat rumah semenjak Si Naqeesya kena chicken pox..kesian minah tu..org lain dah start sekolah..dia dok melangut je lagi kat depan Disney Channel. Sepanjang seminggu ini lah jugak aku asyik BerFarmville dan BerCafe World..sehinggalah kelmarin aku dapat satu email dari akademi penulis..yg buatkan hati aku penuh bara.....

Bara-bara hati aku ni makin marak setelah aku baca buku terbaru abg pek, 9 Nyawa (Izuddin punya idea lah ni..nak bagi title mcm tu ..setelah menengokkan kucing2 mereka yg gemuk2 tuh..). mamat ni..siang2 kerja, kadang2 kena pergi ober sea lagi..malam balik rumah tolong basuh kain lagi hehehe...tapi masih ada masa nak tulis novel...

Email dari akademi penulis tu aku baca utk tah keberapa kali...email tu kata dia org ada menawarkan kursus penulisan 3 hari 2 malam di Hotel Vistana dgn harga Rm1600 dan seterusnya bila aku belek2 lagi aku jumpa pulak website univeritipts.com yg menawarkan bengkel penulisan percuma...Rm1600 ke, percuma ke bukan satu masaklah...masaklahnye..aku!..rajin kah...?

Dan hari ini aku belek2 lagi thumbdrive tempat aku simpan koleksi2 cerpen ku, aku baca balik Tudung Wani yg pernah tersiar kat majalah Nur, Senjakala yg pernah tersiar kat Dara.Com, dan beberapa cerpen lagi yg pernah masuk Remaja, Nur, Muslimah..etc...Akhirnya, aku belek novel2 yg dah aku tulis yg akhirnya jadik macam Projek rumah tak sudah.. Mungkin Nanti Ada Kasih dah masuk Chapter 20 tapi aku stop sbb kerumitan hidup masa kat kuantan yg akhirnya Novel tu dipendekkan jadik cerpen je..nasib baik tersiar jugak kat Nur..terima kasih Salina Ibrahim. Kemudian, Andai Bulan Bisa Bicara , novel thriller yg dah masuk Chapter 12..tapi tak sudah2 jugak selepas aku tiba2 diserang soklan yg beturbi2.."boleh jual ke, ada ke org nak publish ke..sedang kan buku tu tak siap lagi tp aku dah fikir bukan2...bila aku baca..ok jugak tulisan aku nih...(kalau tak aku, sapa lagi nak puji.. dah aku sorang je yg baca...)dan yg terakhir yg sepatutnya siap tahun 2009..Ada Apa Dengan Ameena Zahara..aku bantutkan hajat hati nak siapkan buku ni selepas 1 publisher kata "buku dalam bentuk diari tak boleh jual, guna style monolog, menyebabkan jalan cerita tak boleh berkembang"..dan aku pun terus tak kembangkannya...

Aduhai Nani Koraiza..kalau ko siapkan buku2 tu..tah2 sekarang ni ko dah jadi...famous dah (ahaks22)....tak baik berkalau..so..resolusi aku tahun ini..nak siapkan 2 buku aku itu...siap kan je...publish ke tak lain cerita.....boleh kah? Rajin kah..? Jgn fikir byk..buat je...