Assalamualaikum,
I've started doing HR Consultant job at one of my client's office. Dah lama tak workg 9-5, so a bit panas punggung jugak at first. Luckily, it's only 3 days per week and Kak Zakiah and I selalunya won't come sharp 9am in the morning...This time much easier, I don't have to take LRT like last time, I just need to drive to Salak South through KESAS then park dekat rumah Kak Zakiah and from there naik Neo Orange kak Zakiah to Jalan Ampang.
LAst Saturday, We all dok menghabiskan saki baki raya by pergi open house, first rumah auntie kat Kajang, then rumah Norbaya (class mate masa form 4 and form 5) kat TTDI Jaya, then from Baya's house, we all pergi rumah Azrina kay Kuang, Baya, since dah tak jumpoa dia for almost 2 decades banyak benda we have to catch...she hasn't change, she is lecturer kat Poli Shah Alam, since ramai orang so tak dapat cakap banyak..but dia sempat bagitahu she got 4 kids but only 3 yg hidup. The eldest, past way after just few days she came back to works. The baby passed away coz chocking milk kat child care. She told me and Jay how hard both of them suami isteri nak go through those moments....
Then, I came across Kamariah Ramli punya blog, she also my old fren, masa kat SMTA. I always remember her, so I try to search her name kat Google and jumpa her email addess kat Unitar. I read her blog, then I got to know that she has 1 son, authisme. And she told how her life and the challenges both of them suami isteri to face unyuk membesarkan anak. Then I realised, I thought all this kind of things won't happen to me, or to my frens because when we we're young, we're so happy, healthy, no worries..we just laugh..laugh..laugh..buli cikgu..few worries lah bila nak delat exam..but we survived all that..then, Allah berikan ujian yg macam tu. I realised, Allah nak uji umatnya tak kira who they are..."kun Fa Ya Kun..." then it's happen. The al-mighty allah has His own ways to test us..and we have to be ready and to accept it if we are good muslim. We shouldn't be doubtful, we shouldn't questioned His action and decision. The test maybe to increase the level of our iman or because of our old sins or because Allah wants us to realise something..or anything only Allah knows, but it is not our job to question.
When we on top, don't compared ourselves with someone higher than us, there are many more unlucky than us...Dulu, when bad things strike..I am lost, I blame everybody, blame my husband especially. But, takde gunanya...then I realise maybe because of my sins, then I start bertaubat, doa, zikir..and everything till one day Allah swt gave us something un imaginable. But I realise, the gift also might be some kind of test from Allah, we can't be takbur and riak, and boros, and bakhil etc, because Allah can take it back in split second. He wants us to syukur..syukur with what we have....because all these are from Allah..it is not our right to question it...
To Baya and Kamariah...may you all strong and may Allah gives all the best dunia akhirat to you.
